Sunday, 11 February 2018

Vintage Leather Dreams...






Jeans - Next
Jumper - Primark
Earrings - Miss Selfridge
Boots & Jacket - Vintage
All of my dreams have come true after discovering this perfect, genuine leather jacket for £10 in a vintage shop. I've been longing for a classic leather jacket for ages but I'm very picky about the styles and didn't want to contribute to cruelty by buying a new jacket, so finding this one in exactly the style I wanted and amazing quality was a stroke of luck.

I don't remember the last time an item of clothing made me feel so confident. I wore this outfit on just a normal day; uni, lunch with a friend, a life drawing class, then to drinks with my boyfriend, but I felt incredible all day. I felt totally comfortable and also sassy af strutting around the city in my vintage leather. And like this outfit isn't anything special, I'm not breaking new fashion ground or revolutionising anything, but I felt beautiful. I talk a lot about confidence and body positivity, and I think a lot of people assume that always relates to lingerie or being confident naked, but this simple jeans and jacket combo made me feel body confident. My legs looked slim, my boots made me look tall, I love this jumper on me etc etc. After wanting a leather jacket for so long, I finally got to fulfil my HAIM sister, 50s rocker cry-baby daydreams, and I felt amazing.

Put down retail therapy and consumerism all you want, but you can't deny how good something new can make you feel.

Friday, 26 January 2018

Stars In A Teahouse...

 





Fur Coat - Vintage
Denim Jacket - ASOS
Jumper - Primark
Leather Skirt - H&M
Boots - Vintage
I feel like my style has changed in parallel with a change in my attitude towards how I look and dress. Lately I've been leaning more towards simple pieces with extras, like textures or patterns that put a twist on classics. I crave the simplicity of a classic outfit. I love my black high necks, mom jeans, chunky knit jumpers and tailored trousers, but sometimes I feel a weird kind of guilt for not dressing how I feel, for not pushing my boundaries and being bolder in my choices when I feel confident and good.

At uni there can sometimes feel like there's a lot of pressure to be a character, to be cool and express yourself loud and clear. So I've fallen head over heels for pieces that allow me to hold tight to my beloved simplicity while also feeling a little funky. The epiphany came when I walked into H&M to find a star print knit jumper and a star print A-line leather skirt in the sale, hallelujah. Incorporating two of my favourite and most trusted pieces made patterns less scary and got me feeling cool and comfy. Yaaaas.

As ever, I'm pairing a black high neck jumper with an all black ensemble as a nod to my everlasting style icon Aubrey Hepburn (more specifically Hepburn in Sabrina, swoon). Then adding a denim jacket layered under my regular teddy bear coat to add a casual texture, colour, and added warmth cause the weather is awful. My Mum's old block heel boots are the cherry on top, they make me feel like Rachel from Friends and look amazing with jeans, dresses, everything.

As you can tell by the photos above, I'm absolutely overjoyed about the addition of star print in my life, and also the tea that was coming my way. Three cheers for taking a classic pairing and making it a little extra, hip hip hooray!

Sunday, 14 January 2018

Sunday...


Sunday morning;
I put my small hand into a jar and pick out a task,
my soft skin touches dark wood,
warm carpet, and everything smell of my mother
and her refusal of help in the kitchen.
We sit at the table, we all have room for pudding,
we gather again in the evening.

Sunday morning;
I make an effort, wrote a list ahead of time
so I cannot ignore the care I need.
Early dawning, no tears in the morning,
feelings cold as ice cream, but still as sweet;
walk to the gardens, eat fruit,
paint nails, face-mask, sleep.
There’s always someone around you,
pointing out soft blues that are natural and true,
everything is calmer now.

Sunday morning;
I don’t set an alarm, assured I will always wake first,
always in time to roll over,
close my eyes again so we can pretend to open them in sync.
10am, 11am, stay still, still soft,
oh to be in love on a Sunday,
oh to walk hand in hand with no deadline,
oh to feel just the same on Monday.

Sunday girl on a Sunday morning,
my mother, my lover, 
me.
Loved, cared for and comforted,
learning to feel everything like I feel on Sunday,
learning to expect no less than Sunday morning, dinner table, evening talks love.

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Sundays have always been a special day for me. I was born on a Sunday, and in my family, Sunday is a day of tidying up, reorganising and gathering yourself up to prepare for a new week. Each Sunday we would tidy the house then have a proper Sunday roast, and that's my favourite tradition. Since moving to University I've tried my hardest to keep a small part of that tradition going, I try to keep my Sundays free of work, I keep them as a day to look after myself, do small acts of self-care like paint my nails and treat my skin, it's always a day I treasure with friends and my boyfriend. And at some of the harder times, Sundays are a goal, just get through to Sunday and take the offering of the new week as a new start, fresh and free.

Sunday also reminds me of two of my favourite songs; Sunday Girl by Blondie, and Sunday Morning by The Velvet Underground. Sunday Girl is my burlesque stage name, something that makes me feel really confident and empowered,and has introduced me to an amazing group of women.

Sunday also featured heavily in my book Chrysalism. I recently talked about my relationship with some of the poems in my book, one of which being All Week Sundays, which were 'love' poems written about a relationship and a situation that in actuality was extremely toxic. I always loved the line in that poems; 'Learning to feel everything like I feel on Sunday', but I deserve to feel better than how I felt on Sundays spent within that relationship, when I felt small or not good enough. I deserve to feel how I feel on Sundays with my family, on Sundays I spend purposefully looking after myself, on Sundays I spend getting breakfast with friends, or on a walk with my boyfriend who loves and respects me and admires me like no one else ever has. 

I got this tattoo, in the font used in my book, to remind myself of all these things. Of my family, of my favourite songs, of my friends and loved ones, of myself and the self-care I practice and the kind of love I deserve, and of all the things I treasure and everything that makes me feel confident. Self-care and self-love can be as simple as having a day to remind you of the love you have in your life, and the type of love you deserve, both of which are honest and kind and make you feel like the best version of yourself. And that's how I feel on a Sunday, and how I deserve to feel all the time.

Thursday, 4 January 2018

Fashion & Film #12 ~ When Harry Met Sally...


Similar to Annie Hall and Pretty Woman, When Harry Met Sally is a hot bed of 80s fashion that no doubt you turned your nose up at the first time you watched it, but now you're reconsidering your judgement. I'm obsessed, but it's not just me, ManRepeller recently fangirled over the films dreamy fall fashion prompting me to rewatch the heartwarming classic pronto.

Sally, played by Meg Ryan, has got the masculine/feminine tailored look down to a T. When we're first introduced to her she's serving a look of bermuda shorts and matching navy cardigan and knee high socks; it shouldn't work but somehow it's making me want to copy? As the film passes through time Sally goes through all the trends; shoulder-pad power suits, high neck jumpers, tailored trousers, off the shoulder dressed and mom jeans. Everything she wears I could find in my wardrobe, proving that style never dies and trends are nothing but cyclical.

But it's not just the ladies. Harry styles knitted jumpers, jeans and fresh trainers just like 90% of my uni population. Throughout the film, his style managing to become less dad and more 90s, leaving behind the cord and becoming more inspo worthy as he sorts his damn priorities out.



I also wanna give a shoutout to the extra seen in the background of the baseball scene, wearing black joggers, black sweatshirt but fresh white trainers. I've been wearing this look nope stop, swapping the sportswear for cigarette trousers but keeping the same monochrome.

Maybe the characters outfits may take it a smidge too far, but you can't deny the influence haunting us still into 2018, and I for one am inspired to purchase a girlboss, 80s power blazer.

Saturday, 30 December 2017

In 2018 I Will...



I've spoken a lot on social media about my 2017 and it's severe highs and lows. The conclusion drawn as the earth spins round to where it started is that 2017 was without a doubt the hardest year of my life with challenges I never thought I'd face. But more importantly 2017 was the most productive year of my life (so far) and proved to me that I am more driven, passionate, resilient and strong than I ever knew. The theme of 2017 was overcoming, and so the theme of 2018 will be growing and thriving like never before.
So this year I've decided to focus only on what's ahead, and write dos instead of don'ts. Here are my 2018 aims.

In 2018 I will...

1) Work to treat and talk to myself as I would to others.

2) Stay focused on uni and projects, tackle lack of motivation but also allow myself rest.

3) Practise balance in every aspect of my life.

4) Release another book.

5) Learn a new skill, totally separate from writing.

6) Do more, go out more, see friends more.

7) Be carefree and caring, refuse to care anymore about things that are gone and done.

8) Try to be more patient and logical towards my mental health.

9) Cook more and expand my meal repertoire.

10) Put more effort in with people I love and who love me, remember that small things are significant.

11) Work to become less frightened to verbally speak what I'm feeling to people.

12) Try to spend less than 2 hours a day on social media, and stop myself when ever I notice myself mindlessly scrolling.

13) Read more books and buy more magazines.

14) Be better with money. This one isn't optional.

15) Actively seek new friends, new chances and new hobbies.

16) Work to let go of worries and comparisons that don't motivate me and aren't healthy.

17) Only carry lessons from the past year, not negative feelings or labels.

18) Explore more. Someone please get me on holiday.

19) Celebrate my own achievements.

20) Make myself happy, and make others happy.

My mantra for the year will be-

'Don't call yourself names you would never taint another with. Don't treat yourself in ways you would never dream of treating another.'

Here's to the new year x