Thursday, 30 June 2016

What's been happening?...

So things have been a little quiet from me over the past month but finally I'm back! I thought I should fill you in on whats been happening because it's been a busy busy busy month...

4th June

June started in a haze of revision. After starting study leave in late may my life was literally revision alllll day so I started to get a little stir crazy. Restlessness led me to cut my own hair over my bathroom sink... and it was damn empowering! I'd wanted to cut my hair for a while but I'm always so indecisive about my hair, until one night I just grabbed some scissors and did it myself. The result was surprisingly even and nice, so at least if I fail all my exams, it looks like I've got a promising career in hairdressing...

17th June

After an intense couple weeks of exams I was finally free. It's the strangest feeling ever, I've worked for two years towards these exams and within a week and a bit they were over. I feel a little lost without revision if I'm honest but walking out of my final exam (English Literature) I felt instant relief ahhh. I'm so so so so proud of myself and at several points during college I couldn't see myself being able to complete these exams, but I pushed through and I'm hopeful that I've done enough to get me to the next step! So if all goes well, in September I'll hopefully be relocating to Sheffield to study English ahh!!

20th June

But I didn't really get to celebrate my freedom as the following Monday I went under the knife. If you haven't seen my constant complaining on twitter, I've been pretty ill since like December with really awful recurring tonsillitis. I've had so so many rounds of antibiotics, so many wooden sticks poked in my mouth, a needle stabbed into my tonsil but the docs decided my tonsils had to go. I won't lie to you, it was pretty awful. I have a really bad phobia of being sick/hearing people be sick, so being on a ward all alone with people around me being sick was probably one of the worst experiences of my life, but as my mum would say, I'm a trooper! The doctors discovered that my swollen tonsils had been blocking 75% of my throat (?!?!?!!?) so I'm definitely glad to be rid of them. 6 hours and a slice of toast later and I was heading home to recover.

The past two weeks have been a bit of a blur. At first my dosages of painkillers were way way too high so the days were a haze. But honestly, its been nice to have some down time after all the stress of my exams. So during recovery I've read Lolita, started reading On The Road, written a whole bunch and watched a LOT of next top model and Nashville. 

I'm planning on doing a whole post about tonsillectomy's and tips for recovering as I've been finding it really hard to find tips and advice, so maybe I could help someone else out.

Another thing I've been doing is planning and working on issue 3 of my mag KILORAN set for release in late august. I always get so excited about working on the mag as I'm so passionate about it and it's such a privilege getting to work with so many incredible people. I'm so excited to share the body issue with you all, and if you want to contribute there's still time so drop me an email! 

Read past issues HERE

28th June

After a week and a bit of recovery, I re-entered the real world to attend my sister's graduation. My super brainy big sis graduated from Durham University with a degree in Maths and I'm proud as punch! She's worked so hard and is making all her dreams come true. It was a lovely day and I got to wear the most beautiful dress (post coming soon) We drank free prosecco, attended celebrations that were far to fancy for the likes of me, and had an amazing afternoon tea which hurt my throat like hell but was SO worth it (I love clotted cream more than anything). 

And now I'm here. No longer a college student, just in limbo waiting for the next step! So expect lots of posts in the next two months as I attempt to fill my time. Thank you for being so patient with me this month, but never fear, ya girls back!

Wednesday, 22 June 2016

The Strength Project #8 ~ Evie Hope Whittaker

"Sometimes being afraid can show more strength than being fearless"

Every now and then you encounter people that blow you away with their strength and positivity. I went to the same school as Evie for years so news of her diagnosis with a brain tumour came as a sad shock to everyone, but her incredible, inspiring attitude has served as a reminder of how strong someone can be in the face of hardship. I knew I had to get Evie involved with the project as I think she's so bloody inspiring and brave, and if anyone's got some valid thoughts on strength, this girl definitely has...

What does strength mean to you?

I couldn’t have done the past few months without strength. To me, strength is being able to endure throughout a situation that's unusual to you, for example for me it was an operation and radiotherapy. I felt extremely scared but I had to gather the strength and think to myself you can do this. Strength is having faith that you will get through the bad time and the power to do it is within you.

Could you tell me about a time when strength was evident in your life?

One time strength was evident this year was the time around my operation. One of my fears has always been having surgery as I was scared I wouldn't wake up after it or would wake up during and feel what was happening, although I had this fear I just accepted that the surgery needed to be done to remove the tumour and went in no problem and came out and after I asked for a Chinese in the recovery room so I wasn't too bothered about it haha.

You’re super honest and open about your battle with cancer through social media and your blog, do you think sharing your thoughts and experiences is beneficial to your strength?

Yeah definitely it helps to be able to just write about it and get my feelings out there and also I'd love if the things I write could help other people in a similar situation.

You have so many messages of support on your social media, do you think people’s response to your battle helps or hinders?

I think it definitely helps me to be stronger, knowing that I have support throughout this and that people appreciate me sharing my experience definitely helps as having people around you also helps with strength and knowing you have touched people helps also.

Do you think strength is something you’re born with or something you develop?

I think strength is something that you're born with but you have to develop throughout life, we go through so many different experiences in life where strength is needed and mistakes I've made and things I've experienced have helped to educate me and knowledge makes us stronger

Do you think your battle with cancer has changed how you view strength?

Yes I think it has because I've never had an experience where I've had to remain so strong but now I have so I think my view on strength has changed because I know how to build my strength and keep staying strong better than before I was diagnosed.

When do you feel strongest?

Hmm this is a tough one.. I feel strongest when I have to go through something that's unusual to me and I don't really want to happen but I just do it and endure it such as going into radiotherapy, I was completely alone in the room and my radiotherapy mask is pinned down to the table so I couldn't move my head; it was a very scary experience but I got through 6 weeks of it, I feel strongest in situations that I'm not used to or I don't particularly like because I just do these things even though I may be scared but my strength gets me through.

Could you sum up what strength means to you in 3 words?

Courage bravery determination


Evie is super positive and open online so make sure to take a look at her social media/blog! She's an incredible gal and I'm sending her all the good vibes in the world.

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Tuesday, 7 June 2016

Matcha Nice-Cream Recipe ~ #SummerofMatcha...

If you've read my Exam Eating post then you'll know that I'm desperately trying to eat better in preparation for my exams next week so I've been swapping out some treats with healthy alternatives.

One thing I love love love to make is Nice Cream which is basically just frozen bananas blended into an ice-cream consistency. And as Eat Clean Tea is offering bloggers samples of their matcha green tea to share some summery recipes, I knew I had to share my recipe. This honestly tastes amazing and is so good for you, packed full of natural energy and antioxidants making it perfect for a healthy summer dessert to keep you cool!

What You Need... 
(makes about 3 portions)

3 Bananas- Peeled, cut up and frozen over night. (ripe, spotty bananas will blend better!)
Coconut Milk (or really any other milk)
Matcha Powder*
Maple Syrup (optional)

Eat Clean Tea offer different flavours of matcha including Ginger and Mint, so maybe if you're new to matcha or unsure on the flavour try out a flavour before diving straight into the original!

What to do...

1) Firstly you need to freeze your bananas overnight so they're totally frozen. The bananas are what's going to make up the base of the nice cream. 

2) Put 3 tablespoons of coconut milk (or whatever milk you're using) into a bowl with 1 tablespoon of matcha powder and whisk until they're fully combined. Chances are on the top of your tin of coconut milk there will be a layer of more solid coconut cream, if you just stir it with a fork it will revert back into the milk! If you want your nice cream to be even creamier, put a tablespoon of the coconut cream in as well. 

3) Then put your frozen bananas into a food processor and pulse them until they break down into smaller pieces.

4) Add in the matcha mixture and maple syrup if you want some extra sweetness, and blend away! After a while it should become the consistence of soft serve ice-cream. If not, simple add in a little more milk.

And serve! If you want it more solid, put the mixture into a tub and pop it into the freezer for a little bit to harder. But if not, enjoy as is!

So refreshing and totally guilt-free! I honestly love making nice cream, I think it's even better than normal ice-cream and it's so adaptable. Mix anything in with the frozen bananas and you can pretty much make any flavour imaginable!

Have you ever tried matcha? And if you have, how do you drink it/use it?